Ashley

Fri, 10 Nov 2006 21:09:45 GMT

I'm goin to Central tonight for central/western weekend... I'm EXCITED! I work doubles tomorrow and Sunday.... laaaaaaaaaame

oh well i need the cash cike crazy, i need to make $220 by next friday for rent... hmmm eek i hope i can manage it!

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 17:28:59 GMT

Spent the weekend at state... loved it. I went with this guy that I work with, I've never even talked to the kid much but he asked me to go with him and I reeeeaally wanted to see Katy and Steph so I said yes. We went after I got off work Friday night, hung out with his friends and went to a party, I met a bunch of people, i'm actually kinda suprised at how lately I havent had a hard time meeting people and getting along with them right away. I was always kinda shy before... hm. Saturday I spent the whole day with my girls, steph during the first half then katy and mark during the second half... I love those 2 girls so much. I just got home about an hour ago, and I have to write 2 papers today... yay

So I've realized that I'm not that happy being single. I thought it'd be better for me, but it doesnt seem like there many people that are worth being interested in. It's weird, nowadays I'm just not attracted to people... I mean I miss sex and all, but there's no one that I'm even remotely that attracted to, even when I'm drunk haha which i think is kinda strange. I dunno...

haha I've realized I only write in lj when my roomate isnt here cause i have no one to talk to about stuff....

Sat, 28 Oct 2006 06:51:17 GMT

haha halloween cracks me up... girls look so skanky but it's completely acceptable....

I strongly dislike very fat girls in revealing clothes that think they look sexy and that every guy in the room wants them.... blah

I can't wait to look skanky in my costume...

Goin to Kettering tomorrow, that or Central, but im leaning more towards Kettering... hope everything goes well

I like when random people call you that you thought never would... like if you give a guy your number at a party and he's way hot and you think to yourself "yea right he's never going to call, he's drunk and probably wont remember me" and then he actually calls the next night to see what your plans are for the weekend.... like that lol I love it

Thu, 26 Oct 2006 13:19:14 GMT

For the first time since all of this ended, I miss him....

but it doesn't make a difference

oh well tho, I guess that's life

Fri, 06 Oct 2006 23:25:38 GMT

So i was just looking through a Delia's catalog, and the things i saw in there scared me. I feel like we're in some downward fashion spiral, and I find myself a little terrified to go shopping, i know wont find a thing that i like...

gross... seriously

in other news: my dad just sent me a letter i got from the Macomb County Curcuit Court saying that I've been selected for Jury duty... oh geezz

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 13:45:06 GMT

So I love phantom of the Opera, but i get disappointed every time i see it, cause other than when the phantom has his mask off, he's so sexy, I really wanted Christine to be with him... he only goes crazy and kills people when they get between him and her, so I'm sure he'd treat her like princess...

lol just thought I'd share that little tid bit

so to sum it up: I'd hook up with the phantom as long as he kept the mask on and he sang to me constantly.

:-) hehe

Sat, 30 Sep 2006 06:29:20 GMT

wow... if i thought it wasn't a waste of my time, I'd love to punch you in the face... I'm blocking you on AIM and wont answer your phone calls... douchebag

So I worked tonight, thought about going to the Camo party but decided I didnt feel like it. I went and hung out with jackie, she's sick so i kept her company. Erin went home for the weekend so I'm home alone :-(

I've been keeping busy lately, workin a lot, going to class, doin homework occasionally, partying once in a while, I probably go out about once a week, when i first got back I wanted to party a lot, but now I've settled into my normal way of things. I mean i go out a lot, but i only go drink once in a while.

I've been makin decent money at work, easily making rent and expenses, i need to go shopping for some winter clothes soon!

I think I'm going with Jon to watch Jackie play a few holes of golf in the morning, then im gonna work out hard core cause i need it badly, then work at 11:30, then who knows...

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 14:32:34 GMT

I'm unhappy. For the last twelve hour's it's been hard to remember a time when I actually was completely happy.

I'm going to go work out and see if i can get this numb feeling to go away

I hate posting shit like this in here, but i just... I dont want to talk to people about it, i feel like anyone would just like "oh poor ashley, feeling sorry for herself"... and livejournal cant do that to me, it just accepts how I feel, and that's that. Not to mention I feel pathetic when I talk to people about it... I'm supposed to always be able to suck it up all the time

It's funny cause people come to me with their problems, they're open and tell me stuff. and I'm very rarely like oh please, just deal with it, ur making something out of nothing. But I always feel like my problems, no matter how much I actually hurt, arent legitamate, like i shouldn't be feeling the way i do, and people would just be like... oh please

Not like talking to anyone can help anyway, no one can give me advice cause most people aren't like me. I dont know why, but I always have felt different than everyone else, like we cant completely relate. I guess that's the whole problem...

I should just stop writing cause I really have nothing to say

Ya kno what...

Wed, 06 Sep 2006 17:19:05 GMT

I like crunchy peanut butter... what are you gonna do about it?!?! First class of the school year today... it went well... I do hate computers though, it's like the teacher is speaking another language when lecturing about them... oh well work tonight at 3:45... i dont feel like going. That's okay, tomorrow is my first day off since Saturday... I've been working doubles every day and still feel like i have no money... I've been told there's a toga party tomorrow, I hear it's big, but i really dont want to try to wear a toga, I've never seen a girl wear one, so i wouldn't want to wear one and be the only girl, but then i wouldnt want to not wear one and be the only girl wearing normal clothes... so i may just not go... lol who knew attending a party would take this much thought... I may hang out with Melanie and Kelly tonight, I feel like goin out, tomorrow i have an 8-10 and 12-2, so 8 would be rough if i was drinkin tonight... we'll see

Sun, 03 Sep 2006 22:54:55 GMT

so my cat doesnt land on it's feet when tossed or jumping... does that mean he's kinda retarded?

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 00:24:09 GMT

I've come to realize that I dont like being alone. Being alone gives me time to think, and I dont like being alone with my thoughts. I just think, way too much. I'm so glad erin will be back in an hour, i dont kno how much longer I can take this...

I'm so bored, but i dont want to call anyone... I wish I lived around more people that i knew...

I can't wait to start working and to start school again... at least then I'll socialize a little. Start going to parties and things.... right now I just feel like... i dont even know how i feel

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 00:20:02 GMT

I took a stroll down memory lane
it wasn't as warm as I'd remembered

The leaves were dead
all things were faded

why oh why had i thought
that I'd seen so much beauty?

why oh why had i began to think
that it even had a chance

omg i just found this in my journal from like 2 years ago... hilarious

Thu, 31 Aug 2006 22:51:54 GMT

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Tue, 29 Aug 2006 17:41:49 GMT

So apparently I do work this weekend... doubles Saturday through monday and then an evening shift on tuesday... that is gonna suck, especially with me just coming back, I'll have to learn about the changes in the menu and get back in the rythem of things quick. But still, that's gonna be a lot of money I make. I think I'm gonna apply to other restaurants tho, cause i hate ruby tuesday's uniform, it's very unflattering for me, which keeps me from making even more tips.

My roomate is gone til Thursday... I'm so alone! lol last night Jackie came over and kept me company for about an hour but she had to leave early cause she had golf this morning, i went to bed around 2, I slept til about 20 minutes ago... and I still have nothing to do today. I'll probably go for a run, eat something, sit around for an hour or two, then I'm supposed to hang out with christi and andy later, and I think i may have some people over later on in the night.

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 03:27:36 GMT

This is the most I've written in here in a long time!

AWWW today I saw Ryan Renas, little Ostrawski (or however you spell that lol) and like two other younger guys i didnt know, but they knew me... lol I was makin smoothies and i keep hearing "hey ashley" "hey ashley" "ashley I love you" lol it was funny. I love Ryan, he's sooo adorable! We exchanged numbers and I told him to come visit. I guess he's going to Central in October, so he said he'd come over then at least.

I'm pulling an all-nighter... I will be packed for tomorrow!! yayyyyyyyyyyyy I cant wait to go back up to school!!! People I would LOVE to see are up there, and much more of Warren is just going to bored me TO DEATH.

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 18:22:54 GMT

Lots of packing in store for Ashley...

last night while cleaning I found some poetry I wrote... some sad stuff, but it was actually pretty decent.

Leasons at 6.... blahhhhhhhhhh I dont wanna go!!!!!!!!!!!!

Better call me tonight, it'll be the last night that I can hang out before I go up to school. I wont be back again until Christmas, and even then I'm not staying all that long... so yea, better enjoy time with me now!

The bitch in me has to come out and say it:

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 18:01:05 GMT

Leggings are ugly. They look dumb. Just because they sell them at stores like abercrombie and they are in magizines where people who make a living by telling the mobs what is "in" say that they are in, they are still ugly.

That is all.

If you disagree with me, you're an idiot. Go read a fashion magizine and twirl your hair.

And I'm done... HOORAY

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 01:33:41 GMT

and yes, you can say I love you out and kiss simply out of habit. I'm not as easy to read as a book, no matter how well you THINK you know me. And people make mistakes, I've been for about 2 years now, I'm sorry to you and to myself for , well I hate to say wasting, but that's basically whats been happening, all that time.

So I dont regret most of it, but I think it was well past time to end.

And in other aspects of my life: Postl found my wallet, it was in his car.. whew that's a lot of stress off of me. Last night I hung out with Muller and John, fun stuff

It was a very good night :D

I need to go get my passport from Crudders house, cause stupid me left it in canada and he was thoughtful enough to bring it back for me, and then I think I'm gonna spend the evening packing, I have a lot to do

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 19:11:08 GMT

YESSSSSSSSSSS Leason's was slow so they let me come home early!! yay!!

I'm gonna go sleep this off....

Abercrombie is taken advantage of me this week... I work Monday through Thursday 8am til 1 pm. yikes I hate getting up early... Then Leasons monday and Thursday 6-close

I leave for school on Saturday... Call me soon, this may be your last chance til who knows when...

I dont have any plans for tonight as of yet... call if ya wanna do something

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 15:40:26 GMT

haha I'm still way drunk from Canada, I dont really remember coming in last night... like I remember the car ride, but not actually coming into my house... weird, I wonder what time it was

haha I'll be at leasons 12-6, come see a drunk/hungover Ashley!!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 18:26:12 GMT

Well... that was unexpected...

What a great night :-D I haven't been in such a good mood at 6:30am in a loooooong time... in fact, if ever...

just got home from abercrombie a little bit ago

I think I need a nap before Leasons at 6, I'm sleepy!

Le sigh...

Tue, 01 Aug 2006 03:35:01 GMT

I'm not sure how I feel about life right at the moment....

I feel relieved, and deep down I feel like I did the right thing, cause that feeling of mistrust has always been there, and I've just ignored it. I do miss him tho... a complete break up is never easy. Even if he didnt do anything that he supposedly did, the fact is I dont trust him, and there's no point in a relationship if you dont have trust.

I'm working 3 jobs right now... you'd think I'd be loaded... I'm not.

I've been a very bad girl, spending lots of $$$ on clothes and such.

Erin and I for sure got the apartment, we move in August 26th, and I have to have $503 by then... better start savin my pennies.

Fri, 09 Jun 2006 05:06:25 GMT

So I got that job at Abercrombie, but I'm pissed that I didnt get scheduled all this week... gay. I'm mostly pissed cause i drove all the way to Lakeside to find out they didnt schedule me at all... fuck them...

I'm gonna call Ruby Tuesday tomorrow and have them transfer me, I'm so broke it's rediculous

I'm sooooo bored right now, I haven't been this bored since i got home from school.

It's weird, a lot of people get home sick when they go away to college, but I am utterly school sick right now. I miss being around all my college friends, and that lifestyle. I miss having a roomate and best friends that live within a couple of doors away from me, I miss going out a majority of the nights and never having a moment where im bored. I miss leaving my dorm room door open and lots of people just wondering in to chat. I miss never having to search for a party or a place to hang out. I miss everyone I met there throughout the year, even the people that i just said hi to when I'd pass them in the hallway, I miss going to a party and being so drunk that I act like I love every single person that I've ever met that happens to be there. I just flat out, with all my heart Miss Northwood

:*-(

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 17:53:40 GMT

So I guess I dont really write in here anymore...

Well here's a little insight into my life at this current time:

-I'm back from school for the summer
-I had a job interview at Abercrombie on Tuesday, I'll know by tomorrow if I got the job, I haven't heard back from any of the other places I've applied. If no one else calls me by friday, Monday I'm gonna call Ruby Tuesday up in Midland and have them transfer me to the one on 15 and Van Dyke
-I sleep in til at least 12 everyday because I never have anything to do in the morning, what's the point of waking up. I should get up earlier so i can go for runs and lay out a little
-I'm going through this weird lack of alchohol thing, like not being drunk at least 3 times a week feels really weird (some may call it a problem, I call it I've gotten used to college life)
-My last year of summer softball starts on the 13th, Tuesdays are away and Thursday games are always up at Tower at 6, be there if you love me. I'm excited and nervous at the same time, I've gotten a little rusty being out of the sport for so long
-I got a ticket on Tuesday. My first one. The cop said i was going 13 over, but he gave me the ticket for impeding traffic so i wouldnt get any points, just a 100 dollar fine. I dont think i was going that fast... whatever

And I dunno, I guess that's it for now. Call me if you wanna hangout

Tue, 18 Apr 2006 04:16:26 GMT

I am anxiously awaiting everything that the rest of the week holds in store for me. I just want tomorrow to go by quickly, and I must write my research paper, but other than that... YAY

I started an intermural team for the co-ed slowpitch season our school runs for about a month... im excited, maybe we'll have practice tomorrow..

WEDNESDAY is Nick Swardson... and GVSU, I'm SO excited to go over there

:-)